Rain. It has always made me happy. It was always fasinated me, the way it never drops in the exact same place. When I go for a stroll into my woods, located across from my neighorhood, or perhaps go to my santuary, aka the college around my small town. I hope for rain, it helps me think. The way it falls unto my skin sends me into my world. Water alone made me this way. Not a worry in my head. Just a rush, like a tide crashing against the shore. It regenerates me.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Life, What is its meaning?
I have always wondered what the meaning of my life was. I never thought it would drive me to this level of insanity. No wonder I scare everyone. Yes, I do purposely act insane in instances. Its amusing me to see outcomes. But when it is just when im trying to be myself, whom of which I have no idea anymore, they turn away. Ones of which i didnt mean to frighten. Maybe its because they see behind this mask. Why I still not show? The answer has not set itself before me. No one has said a word of this, but still I worry.
Life for me has been difficult. Not as difficult as lots, however, my nature is fragile. The slightest change in balance tears me from peace. Which ever way the balance tips, my heart drops. As there can never be a permanent peace, my heart will forever be unwhole. Falling into the darkness.
My world is diffrent that most. As most people dont see what I see. For my world is welcomed by the faeries. Living amongst the trees, underground where they hide from the troubles of man. They are not kind creatures. Beautiful to the beholder, but under, there hearts run cold. Then theres the children of moon and night. Vampyres, Lycans alike. Living amonst their domains. As in legend, their origins speak of war, making natural enemies of the two. Lastly, The children of Lilith. Warlocks. Magnificent creatures. Great power, but so many laws it seems. So many other fantastic creatures.....
This world that i get lost in, seems to protect me, from the dangers of others. What some would fantasy, is my reality. Books keep me connected to my world. Only dangers are the ones we cant see. But can sense....Dangers atleast unseen by the normal eye. Perhaps its just me, my mind playing tricks on me. All i know is, im not normal....
Im so lost in my mind, I have no idea what im in for. Maybe this is Gods way of changing the word. But would i be ready for that? Another question to be unanswered. Hopefully someday ill learn why im here. Hopefully, itll be something my mind can withhold.
Life for me has been difficult. Not as difficult as lots, however, my nature is fragile. The slightest change in balance tears me from peace. Which ever way the balance tips, my heart drops. As there can never be a permanent peace, my heart will forever be unwhole. Falling into the darkness.
My world is diffrent that most. As most people dont see what I see. For my world is welcomed by the faeries. Living amongst the trees, underground where they hide from the troubles of man. They are not kind creatures. Beautiful to the beholder, but under, there hearts run cold. Then theres the children of moon and night. Vampyres, Lycans alike. Living amonst their domains. As in legend, their origins speak of war, making natural enemies of the two. Lastly, The children of Lilith. Warlocks. Magnificent creatures. Great power, but so many laws it seems. So many other fantastic creatures.....
This world that i get lost in, seems to protect me, from the dangers of others. What some would fantasy, is my reality. Books keep me connected to my world. Only dangers are the ones we cant see. But can sense....Dangers atleast unseen by the normal eye. Perhaps its just me, my mind playing tricks on me. All i know is, im not normal....
Im so lost in my mind, I have no idea what im in for. Maybe this is Gods way of changing the word. But would i be ready for that? Another question to be unanswered. Hopefully someday ill learn why im here. Hopefully, itll be something my mind can withhold.
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